Second Balcony
The Black Bug Room

When I first saw this page a bell knelled in my head and I insisted/knew the Black Bug Room’s a thing that means something to me — means something serious to me — but I had no good take on what. It’s not the first supernatural metaphor for “that dark place in your mind” that I’ve seen, but it’s the only one to ever resonate with me at all.  I’ve started using ‘Black Bug Room’ colloquially, albeit mostly when I’m having conversations with myself, to mean “that dark place in your mind,” and wrote off as unanswerable the question of why this rendition made this type of metaphor I never cared for so profound for me.

A day ago I saw my copy of New X-Men #116 at my friend’s house - I lent it to him but he didn’t read it yet - and started trying to tell him all about the Black Bug Room and how I just can’t tell what makes this scene so special. But instead I found myself explaining, with ease and without any prior reflection, exactly what makes it so special: The Black Bug Room’s specifically that place you go when smack dab in the middle of an action or a life you phase out for a second and recall an ancient worry or resentment you could never solve but mostly learned how to let go of, and in this second everything else in your life seems like it is a ploy distracting you from properly attending to that ancient worry or resentment so you tune your life out, and a voice inside your head explains to you reasonably that whatever is the thing that’s going on outside right now, when you are back outside it’s more important to resolve the issue that we in here at the Black Bug Room are dealing with than just go with the flow you started earlier, so you say “listen to me, there are things we need to talk about, about our relationship.”
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